I’m back or am I?

Despite my determination to keep this blog alive and active, I often get carried away by life! I’ve recently quit my second job,and have been taking a break from a lot of things. The place I worked in and the friends that I’ve made are two of the top things I’ve been keeping a distance from.
Why? I have no clue. I feel like my life isn’t as fulfilling as I would like it to be. I’ve been in Bangalore for over 7 years now, and witnessed the steady decline of the city that I once loved. The insane traffic, the sudden influx of people( most of whom I can’t stand), the waste disposal issues, the weather changes and so many other things. I feel like I need a fresh start in life. In a new place where I know none. I’ve been trying of course.I’ve given about 3 interviews in the past two months. I’m tired of the never ending rounds of interviews, the wait that follows, only to know that you have another round! It’s almost like a cycle isn’t it?
The only progress I have made so far is with my anxiety. I’ve been able to do a better job at keeping it at bay this time.But of course there are many things that do worry me.Will I survive this round of unemployment with positive results, will I be able to achieve the vision that ive built for myself, will I survive?

Power of the mind

I’ve always been an over thinker. And when a certain series of unfortunate events occurred, I went into an over drive of over thinking. Has it helped me in any way? Not at all. I’ve lost a couple of pounds, gone anti social, and some days I feel like there will be no end to the constant chit chatter of negativity in my head.

It is interesting how much power we give to our mind.How we let it reign free, and imagine scenarios in our head when things actually aren’t that bad at all.

Picture this. You have a long distance boyfriend. And sometimes, when he doesn’t reply, you imagine the worst scenarios in your head. The truth maybe something as simple as he might be honestly busy, but when the mind reigns free, the thoughts we have can get twisted and in the end, the only person who loses is you.

Lately, I have been trying to control these negative thoughts. When a negative thought pops up, I try and negate it with rationality. It is hard, but I do feel more at ease. My problems still exist, but at least I have some control over how I let these emotions wreck havoc, and make things worse.

How do you deal with negative thoughts?