The first thing that went through my mind while I typed in the name for the post was Rihanna’s new song. Wild wild wild thoughts. Good song eh? Well, look at me rambling away and moving away from the topic. Anyhow, where was I?
2016 was probably the year I lost my sanity work wise.And 2017 will be the year I got my bearings back. Well, sort of.
I’m not saying this year has been easy.It has had it’s fair share of ups and downs, but it also goes down as the year in which I was able to silence the voices in my head. You know what I’m talking about don’t you? The voices that make you question if you are good enough.
This was how a normal internal dialogue would look like
Me: Why did I say that? I’m such an idiot
Me: Hmm, my boyfriend hasn’t replied to my message.Maybe he’s cheating on me
Me:Should I text him again? No, i’ll come off as desperate. But seriously, why isn’t he texting
Me: Why would he do this to me? Maybe it was something I did. Maybe I’m not good enough
Yep, this was a just a tiny glimpse into my usual state of mind.However, things have changed since then.I’ve slowly been able to silence the demons.It hasn’t been easy, but these days I wake up with a sense of gratitude. I’ve changed my thought process from today’s going to be a horrible day, to today is going to be the best day of my life.Why is this important you may ask?
It’s because thoughts lead to emotions which in turn leads to action. Simple isn’t it?
It took me 28 years to figure that out. 🙂